My favorite things

But like any infant he can get a little fussy. So, for Halloween I decided to make him a monster costume.

I had a lot of ideas floating around but when I got to the fabric store and saw what was available I just went for what was softest. The price was a little steep, but it is so worth it.

I got a basic onsie pattern and just added little details like the contrast soles and the patches on the tummy. And i wanted to make them unique so the first one has ears and teeth, but the second just has “spikes”.

May 20

no crystal stair.

I had an incredibly difficult day at work, and I left angry crying and ready to just quit on the spot. I have a boss who is incredibly verbally abusive. She knows I am talented, but refuses to admit it. She makes cutting jabs at me throughout the day and the one time I got a little heated she lectured me for twenty minutes on the importance of watching my tone when I speak with her. She points out how noble she is for being so patient with someone like me day in and day out and how she never yells at me (she’s screamed at me at the top of her lungs before, and shouts at me daily).

It’s been a few weeks, but thinking about it even now makes my skin crawl. Nevertheless, I am a christian. I have Christ in me, and I am ultimately accountable to His authority.

So when I got home I had to reconcile these two ideas. Living in LA the culture has taught me that it’s all about me, and what I want. That I deserve to work exactly 40hrs a week, and still get paid enough to live in an amazing loft and wear the best clothes. But, being a christian means I am obedient to the will of God above and beyond my own, often foolish, desires. Like C.S. Lewis wrote; “If God had granted me all the silly prayers I’ve made in my life, where should I be now?”

So, I sat down and began to try to deal with my emotions and these two conflicting view points, and I began to read poetry. Random sonnets and odes at first, and then I settled on some Langston Hughes and I got to this poem:

I was broken, and embarrassed and humbled. So often I forget about the persecuted church. I forget about the slaves in America who loved God so fully and yet many never experienced freedom. I forget that this earthly life is temporary. I forget that I am storing up crowns in heaven, not a wardrobe on earth. I forget!

Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear, and with sincerity of heart, just as you would obey Christ. Obey them not only to win favor when their eye is on you, but like slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart. Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men

I am in no way saying I am a slave. That would be a disgusting overstatement. I’m saying I have it so good. I work in an air conditioned office sitting at a desk drawing pretty pictures, and yet I still complain. I am oft a spoiled child. I need to remember His goodness and mercy when I am angry at work, for He has dealt so bountifully with me.

Jan 26

I little of what I’ve been designing in my free time at work.

Just a bunch of random idea meshed together. I started out calling it “Wednesday Adams New Look”. It’s a conceptual kids line and is still evolving, but for now it’s quite fun.

Jan 21

Nov 11

So many fun things on the interweb!

Sep 06

I needed to read this so desperately today

C. H. Spurgeon

A Strong Heart

Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. (Psalm 27:14)

Wait! Wait! Let your waiting be on the Lord! He is worth waiting for. He never disappoints the waiting soul.

While waiting keep up your spirits, Expect a great deliverance, and be ready to praise God for it.

The promise which should cheer you is in the middle of the verse—”He shall strengthen thine heart.” This goes at once to the place where you need help. If the heart be sound, all the rest of the system will work well. The heart wants calming and cheering, and both of these will come if it be strengthened. A forceful heart rests and rejoices and throbs force into the whole man.

No one else can get at that secret urn of life, the heart, so as to pour strength into it. He alone who made it can make it strong. God is full of strength, and, therefore, He can impart it to those who need it. Oh, be brave; for the Lord will impart His strength to you, and you shall be calm in tempest and glad in sorrow.

He who penned these lines can write as David did—”Wait, I say, on the Lord.” I do, indeed, say it. I know by long and deep experience that it is good for me to wait upon the Lord.

Aug 03

Aug 02

I have a million friends getting married (uber exaggeration) and a couple of them even love me enough to have me in their wedding parties. So, I went looking for fancy Black and Grey dresses to wear to these occasions and this is what I found.

Bridesmaid dress for under 30. Never underestimate the awesomeness of Buffalo Exchange. There’s rows and rows of tiny ruffles around the waist and the bottom pleats and flows out. I’m so excited to wear this!

Jul 07

Chalkboard Obsesso

I got this photo at Goodwill for 5 bucks. The picture isn’t my style but I loved the frame.

Jul 06

It’s funny how I always think I know exactly what I want. Since I’ve started at B&Y I’ve interviewed with 5 companies. I thought I wanted each of them. After every interview I would pray the Lord would open the door if He wanted me there but if that wasn’t His plan for me He would close the door. And, even though most of them we’re practically gift wrapped to me He continued to close doors. I threw a couple temper tantrums but I continued to trust that He has a perfect plan for my individual life and that includes where I work.

After 2 years and serious discouragement I decided to throw my interview at one particular craigslist post. Mostly because the ad called for a sense of humor. It was for a western denim and tee shirt brand that needed a part-time assistant designer. After the interview. I KNEW I wanted this job. Everyone was friendly the job would be a bit mundane at first but I would be made an associate in 6 mos. and I would get to work part time for the first 6 mos which would allow me to go on campus for YL. When I got the offer I started dancing. I honestly have stopped since. Tomorrow is my last day at B&Y and my butt is still wiggling.

It’s crazy how the Lord works but I truly believe this next job is going to be a huge blessing. I’m thankful He opened the door for me two years ago when I first began working at B&Y and I’m thankful for everything I’ve learned here. But I am so excited to leave, and even though I’m going to be in a market that I quite frankly know nothing about. I can not wait to dive in.